This is a constant in the back of my mind, particularly at the moment as I deal with a number of things in my life. Right now, the words don't flow for me. They don't flow for my own thoughts, nor do they flow in my writing of fiction. I feel like I have lost a part of myself - I have always loved my words. For now, they desert me.
Part of it is medical. I have a condition that has affected a part of my brain. My brain thinks what I want to convey, but my mouth and hands can't seem to say the same thing. However, that is not my only problem, and the truth is I feel my motivation has (for the moment at least) gone. The proverbial brick wall is directly in front of me, and I am banging my head against it daily. My muse has gone on holiday. My inspiration seems to have gotten lost.
Writers Block.
It has enveloped me in a way that makes me wonder if I can find my way back to my writing. It makes me doubt myself. It makes me question my ability. It makes me worry I am trying to hard. It has stopped me writing. I could blame the circumstances in my life for my lack of writing, but that would be making excuses for the rut I find myself in.
I need to want to write again. The challenge for me at the moment is to find a way to break down the walls, reinvigorate my muse and rediscover my motivation. Looking at that last sentence, it all seems so easy. So why isn't it?
